Do I suck? I feel so inadaquate sometimes; especially when I read my friends blogs. They are moms too and they seem to be able to get things done and be creative and have time to do things they enjoy. I am ALWAYS with my children. There are times when I feel like I need friends to hang out with or need to pick up my hobbies again, but when? When do they do it? Do they sleep? DO YOU???? You know who you are, Melody, Liz! I just play and take care of my kids and our home. I barely have time for my husband before I am just wiped out and have to go to bed. I barely have time to write in this blog.

Most of the time, I don't care. I love my kids and have a blast with them. But I also feel I am not being productive at the same time. Actually, I feel lazy. I don't even have a church calling to take any time, although I am thinking of volunteering to clean the nursery toys every Saturday because it makes me sick to think of all the germs just sitting in that toy closet!!!! Anyway, am I lazy if I just take care of the mommy and wife stuff? I am just sending this out in the void- no answers please- I just need to vent sometimes, because honestly, I feel like what I do is the most important at this time in my life. There are things that I want to do with my life and talents that I want to develop. For example, I would like to go back to school and take more time to paint, read, sing, and take pictures. I hope that there will be time for that when my children are in school.

OK - enough ranting. I am sounding pathetic. I know what I do is important and I think most people that have three children under 2 wouldn't have time for anything either!